July 30 2025

 Hi,

This day, you celebrated your 31st birthday and I am glad to celebrate it with you. I am grateful to have you now. I thank the Lord for all His ways of making things better (and best) despite the attempts of the enemy to destroy each one of us. 

My cares won't be enough but may you accept all the things I can do for you. Thanks, too, for all the cares you extend to me. 

Let us hold on unswervingly to the hope that we profess for He who promise is faithful (Heb. 10:23). Let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles (Hebrews 12:1). 

I am looking forward to more days of sharing His word, praying with you, and winning battles for the glory of His name. 

Happy birthday!

July 27, 2025

 Despite how the night seemingly had challenges, I wanted to still write about the goodness of the Lord today. 

This blog may not be able to give justice to how He has made everything beautiful in its time (Ecc. 3:11), how He made all things work together for good to those who love Him (Romans 8:28), how every good and perfect gift is from above (James 1:7), that He is is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us (Eph. 3:20). Indeed, His blessings are beyond what we can think of.

This may be just a simple thing being able to attend a Planetshakers concert at SM MOA, with a free ticket, on a premiere suite --but all the more due to the circumstances that had led to this situation. I am writing to remember His goodness. When we are in His vine, we will be able to receive the blessing from the sap.

I may not be able to recount everything but everything's just been so unbelievable that He really can do more than all we ask or imagine He would. From the missed opportunity to book a ticket, to some misunderstandings, getting on the 'cloud', to acceptance---

July 20-21, 2025

My birthday has concluded and I was taking a bath one morning, I told myself that I am going to write another blog for July 2025 which will be about redemption. 

Last year was a sad phase on a friendship which lasted about more than 7 years. As I look back on it as of this writing, I thank God for the new-old-and-rekindled friendships (Glam), new ones (3MC), and a friendship (Jz) built on His will and ways. I wouldn't be able to have received unless I let go of the one that's holding me. I was also able to travel to a location I was to take on last year, this time-- on a much better state and company. 

I am now sober from those things I used to drink and take. I am not taking melatonin to sleep as I am now able to sleep soundly at night, even with a coffee drink few hours prior my sleep. I have been able to have small wins on some challenges and concerns I was battling with. Not that I have fully attained victory-- it must still be covered in prayers all the more and often. 

I am now 39. All I want is more of Him and less of me. 

He is my redemption and I am redeemed. 

I have finished the draft of Chapters 4 and 5 of my thesis and will enroll by next semester. I pray that God may grant me wisdom on how to defend my thesis on pre-orals and final so I could finally graduate from my Masters. I will give Him all the glory. 

As for the work at GOC, I am still working on my bugs with all the focus and sincerity I have--hoping that someday, if not soon, all the hard work will pay off. 

We're now reading the book of John after finishing Psalm 119. We've been praying many prayers each day, taking fasting meals, had communion, and I couldn't be more grateful for this. I am still a work in progress in many areas of my life. I know, I am not called to perfection but consistent growth. 

This is a time of rest and remembering redemption and in this, I give Him all my praises and thanksgiving. 

June 14, 2025

One month to go before my birthday. First entry for this month. 

Amazing how data gathering and stat computations are done and now I am finding my inspiration to write and finish Chapters 4 and 5. There have been days I was overwhelmed, anxious, frustrated trying to finish the thesis. It's been five years and I do pray that this be concluded soon. I trust that He can complete what He has started in me on this. In time, I will give Him all the glory. 

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After having honest talks and prayers about certain challenges that were faced, there has been all the more reasons to cling to the Lord. I thank God for the ways He was able to bring light the things that must be worked upon our lives to complete His work in us. It is still a work in progress but I know and continue to pray that all these desires to know HIm more and place our trust in Him will bear fruit. 

After nights of daily prayers and spiritual warfare, is the daily devotion and reading of the same chapter in the bible. It started off with Psalm 119 after, on one simple occasion of just listening to podcast, I was moved by how Preston liked the friendship with one of his colleagues and closest frient because they share thousand times together reading and meditating the Word of the Lord. Those were impressions that were brought for a start of sharing of God's Word.

Now more than ever, I am aware of not missing daily prayers and reading the Word-- not out of responsibility but more so of a deep longing and desire to know Him more. It was Him who surely made a way for us to start them off. These times have become like the roots that continue to widen its horizons undearneth our souls. 

There have been so many revelations already in the past days and I am so excited about the things that God is revealing to us through these devotions and sharing of His Word. These sharings and personal devotions have become the sword of the spirit - an offense to the works of the enemy.

 And in this spiritual battle, we must be equiped with these to be able to fight off the enemy (Eph 6-10:18). The suite is complete with His Word. We are not just on the defense. 

May 30, 2025

Writing from Baler.  I remember I once wanted to be here but since I left an old set of friends, I wasn't able to be with them on that trip possibly 10 years ago. Fast forward to today, I was able to drive here with the church friends I've been hanging out with since around August of last year. God has provided new set of friends to whom I can join some travels with.

Indeed, God's way are marvelous. We just have to stay with Him to see what He's going to do. Even if it means, staying just where we are. Same church, same people you are with--different seasons. 

I was reminded of this when in this morning's drive, we turned on Preston's The Power of Staying podcast as I told them about Preston. Not sure if they heard everything but since I was driving, I was able to hear the message again. I wanted to write some of the things I think of as what to write but I was driving. 

One particular thing was-- God can make new seasons even if we are staying on the same place for a long time. I have been in the JIL church since college. There have been times I was in the verge of leaving because of past hurts but He still made ways for me to stay. True enough, as I stayed and focused on serving Him, He brought new seasons after seasons in my life to which I grew from. Ministry to ministry. Life groups to life groups. People to people. Some managed to stay as they were and continued to grow--like my Socmed ministry, and friends who stayed, and new ones to whom my life has been enriched and blessed with.

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I am still working on the flaws and weaknesses I have. I am staying where I am, trusting that He can change me from glory to glory. Hindi ko naisip lumayo dahil lagi kong iniisip, where can I go Lord? You have the words of eternal life (John 6:68). I need Him all the more now. 

Today I am meditating Psalm 119:9-16.

How can a young person stay on the path of purity?
    By living according to your word.
10 I seek you with all my heart;
    do not let me stray from your commands.
11 I have hidden your word in my heart
    that I might not sin against you.
12 Praise be to you, Lord;
    teach me your decrees.
13 With my lips I recount
    all the laws that come from your mouth.
14 I rejoice in following your statutes
    as one rejoices in great riches.
15 I meditate on your precepts
    and consider your ways.
16 I delight in your decrees;
    I will not neglect your word.

May 17, 2025

Uploading photos from last Sunday. I am thinking to write something here while waiting the uploads to finish. 

I am almost done with my data gathering, just 10 more respondents and hopefully, I could write the next and final chapters of my thesis. 

It is good to find comforting words from the scripture that says do not be anxious, don't be too stressed. I thank the Lord also for bringing me people who help me in so many ways. Really they have come for such a time as this. I acknowledge His goodness in my life.

Phototeam's also gearing up for the many JILWC events and I am humbled to be part of it. 

Thinking of something to share here. I was scrolling my IG feeds when I bumped into one of my favorite communicators, Jeff Fisher. He shared about how people should be a well, not a waterfall.In our conversations, we must be well where people could draw water from, not a waterfall who says a lot of things and without control (based on my perspective). A well where your words are asked upon, not a waterfall to a point of oversharing. That's how I think people become mysterious with other people. 

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I am still far from perfect, I have a lot of flaws-- some even to the point I need to battle them in prayers and be disciplined to. One thing I know, He is good and gracious in the things I am limited and weak to. He can do the impossible, and I can trust Him with the things that need to be changed in my life-- for His glory.

May 08, 2025

The past days were busy with data gathering that I hardly have no time left for other things like writing here. 

I was able to get up early today. After trying to sleep again and failed, I decided to get up early and put into words my thoughts. I am writing some things on my notes (on specific things that happened) but gathering up my thoughts here to express them in a more general sense.

From the past months of being sober, my head is getting better and clearer. I can even now process my emotions and come to a point of being able to analyze them and validate them. 

Not that I can do them myself alone, it must have some circumstances for which in life are inevitable that pushes me to understand them and give me reasons to grow from it. There must be someone or something that makes you feel vulnerable with so you can navigate them. 

When I was working for a security group, we have this framework for why a fire happens. Hindi ito magandang example but a fire happens because of these three factors:

The fire triangle, a model explaining what's needed for a fire, consists of three key elements: heat, fuel, and oxygen. If any of these elements are removed, the fire will extinguish. 

For something to happen and grasp, there must be elements. In order for me to grow, there must be a circumstance, emotions that goes with it, and something or someone. This goes also how to extinguish things like negative emotions (which is on a different view on this.

A big factor in my processing of things is the fact that I am a spiritual person in need of His grace to help me understand them. 

The verse last night which I remember to ponder was Ephesians 4:2-4 which says 

2 Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. 3 Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. 4 There is one body and one Spirit, just as you were called to one hope when you were called;

In all the things that I need to understand and process, I need to be completely (not partially) be humble and gentle, to be patient and bearing another in love, as I also bear myself with love and grace. Dapat sa akin palang, maging mas gentle na ako, patient with myself, and to love the life He has given me. From there, I will be able to do so with others. 

I am far from perfect, I still perceive things differently from others--and maybe, I still need to work on not just looking at my points but to others as well. Since I am taking up Masters in Communication, it maybe good to use the theories, and learn to use the theories I haven't explored, for me to understand things. A theory I was checking on last night was Communication Perception Theory:

Communication Perception Theory explains how our individual ways of perceiving the world, influenced by factors like background, beliefs, and experiences, shape how we communicate and interpret messages. This theory highlights that the same information can be understood differently by various people due to their unique perceptual frameworks. 

Another is Constructivist Theory pero mas fitting yung CPT.

I thank God for the people He brings me to navigate these things with me, and to use the things I have learned so I can apply them to others within, and beyond, my circle as well. 

April 29, 2025

Trying to write despite the busy schedule on data gathering. It's been taking much of my time but i thank God it is finally happening. Despite the busy schedule, I am grateful for the opportunity to pray for the spiritual and personal prayer items. I have never been this utmost in my prayers. 

Remembering this time of awakening, and also the time of uprooting past issues that are being brought to light so we can pray for them. 

Also, I have a new nephew. New family addition and we thank God for Baby Tyler. 

April 19, 2025

I wouldn't have known the need to do spiritual warfares and deep prayers hadn't I experience I have to win somethings with the Lord. 

I remembered through enties and devotions these words, "instead of pleading for deliverance, we might more wisely to ask about the purpose of our suffering. 

This has been on my notes since I read this. I would always say that we would really need deliverance from the things that hinders us from running the race towards God. While that still holds true for me, I realized that while we ask Him to deliver us from our trespasses, we need to also ponder the thought of the purpose of our suffering. Does this push us to be more holy? Is what I am going through allows me to seek His grace and mercy? 

The Lord did not promise us that we will be spared from suffering (John  16:33). But  when we suffer and I meant suffer from the pain of hurting the Lord, He says "instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance'' (2 Peter 3:9).

While we go through any kind of suffering, it should not numb us, but to come to Him all the more and ask for His grace. Remembering, too, that while He is gracious, He is also just. With that justice, we would fear to do the things that would hurt His heart. 

In this season, I am praying more prayers. Reading His Word like my literal daily bread. The purpose of this suffering? I need to come all the more to His feet and bow down before my King and friend. 

God is not content to let people sit in their own self-destruction. 

He is on a mission to rescue. - Bible Project

April 16, 2025

Capping off my day with a quick blog. What shame does is isolation, what grace gives is freedom. I thank God for another manifestation of His grace in my life. For when my strength ends, His grace begins. 

I am still a work in progress on some areas of my life. All I know that during these times of pain, His blood can cover me and wash me from my iniquities. 

I almost failed Him but in the end, the peace that passes understanding has covered my heart and allowed me to look up. He is the lifted of my head. 

April 11, 2025

Celebrating 2 months of sobriety and one month of exercises. This time, doubling my desire to be yielded to Him all the more as I take this new season, new chapter, and new path I am leading onto. 

As what the Word today says, I can only do all these things through Him who strengthens me. In all these successes and breakthrough, I will remember His grace and mercy that helped me through. He has been my rock and fortress and all the help I receive, people who have been there for me, are from His bounty of favors and goodness. 

I was able to share what I had been through to a trusted friend. It was a relief to finally have shared something I felt shamed from. And like a flood of His grace, I was still loved. It dawned on me that He loves me and I felt that. As I have only now focused on serving Him in all the things I can do for Him. He made me feel seen and cared by His lovingkindness. It was an answered prayer. 

I know I am still frail and weak, but in this weakness He promised that His grace is sufficient for me for His power is made perfect in my weaknesses. 

I am under His grace. 

April 9, 2025

I don't know where and how to start this blog. All I know is that this day has been one of the most memorable moments in my life. I have come face to face with the thing I dread about, confession. From few days til few hours since, words and Word have been encouraging (if the term might be right) to share what I've been trying to keep yet wanting to share. 

I remember this song as I write:

Amazing grace! How sweet the sound

That saved a wretch like me!

I once was lost, but now am found;

Was blind, but now I see.

’Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,

And grace my fears relieved;

How precious did that grace appear

The hour I first believed.

My chains are gone, I’ve been set free.

My God my Savior has ransomed me.

And like flood His mercy reigns,

Unending love, amazing grace.

As I end tonight, I thank God for His grace.