13 of July

Today is one rainy Thursday, it's July 13, 2023. I woke up with a dream of getting along with my cousin who was once a good friend but seemingly have fallen apart from as she moved abroad. 

While it was raining hard, like July would used to be, I thank God for I am working from home. I remembered the times I had to endure the hard rains, and even walked home from the floods. I am here in my own space, with my parents few steps from here. I am dry and loving the feeling of being comforted here and not enduring the rains outside. I may not have my officemates with mem but surely, has it been well or better with them around? From the looks of it, I have liked working from home and in front of computer. If I need to talk to someone, some friends would be online to talk to. I can play games, or watch Netflix or Disney when I feel bored.  I also have Areen with me.

I prepared my food which are some left overs but those were good ones. Burger, nilaga, and nuggets. I have rice cooker with cooked rice and coffee on my table. 

While I missed a lot of things in my life, one cure for anxieties and uncertainties is to be grateful for what we have.

Tomorrow is my birthday, I am still longing for a partner, but I must focus on living my life for the purpose of giving my best to God. I don't know what the future holds, but I am running always to peace knowing He knows it all and is already there for me.

My God has always been good. He always remembers me even in the pit. That I know. He promised me.

Thank You, my Master

 I have been assessing my life lately. So much to be thankful for the grace and mercy God has given me. I may lack somethings in life, regretted things I have done in the past, but I know that what matters now is what I do moving forward. 

I acknowledge myself as a sinner saved by grace alone. I cannot do anything that would make me deserve any of the grace and mercy I have been receiving from Him. Nothing good that I can do could add but I strive to do better things for Him because I am His servant. The decision to make Him my Lord changed everything in my life. My focus now is to serve my Lord and my Master to whom I am indebted.

I like what Paul said in Philippians 3:13–14 , he tries to forget the past. He is not paralized by what he did, but he presses on towards the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

I may or may not get all the things I pray for, but one thing I ultimately desire--is to receive His words at the end of my life saying well done, my good and faithful servant. 

I do not have anything to brag about. Nothing to be proud of except the fact that He is my Lord and I am His.