30 June 2016

I am not fond of watching tagalog films but yesterday, I was in our living room reading when my parents decided to watch The Mistress in Cinema One. Casted by John Lloyd and Bea, it depicted  the story of Bea as the mistress of JLC's father. In one of the scenes growing to plot's end, Bea's bestfriend tried to wake her up to reality. Conversation went like.

Friend: Hindi mo kayang magisa!

Bea: Kaya ko! 

Friend: Tanggapin mong hindi mo maging kayang maging masaya ng magisa!

Something like that. Haha! It dawned on her. She can be alone yes, but it is another thing to be alone yet happy. 

Our true security should come from the fact that God never leaves us. That should inspire us to be happy even if we are at times alone. He is our joy and our salvation. 

29 June 2016

Dear Lord,

Your timing is perfect. Help me to wait patiently and with joy. :)
Let me be grateful each day, remembering Your goodness, Your grace, Your love as I humble myself to Your holiness.

Amen.

28 June 2016

I decided to put down blogging for a time while I make myself remember the many good things God is doing in my life. I was mad, I often catch myself asking what wrong have I done. Then it hit me, no one is good anyway, we are all sinners,we have fallen short of His glory and during this suffering, it was all but to make me look up to Him more. His revelations were my consolations, He can do it while I pray. Even if no justice will be served, it will still be under His control.

I have been reading a new book which was very timely. There were many realizations. One day, I decided to pick up myself once again.  It wasn't to start over, but to continue. There's a life I must live even if it wasn't the situation I had planned. There's still anger, bitterness, but greater is the grace that overwhelms me. Many of the bible heroes has gone through sufferings, one thing they commonly do- remember God's goodness. Yes, God is sovereign, God is omnipotent, He can turn things to our favor, but there would be times that He allows things to happen to know what was in our hearts. He wanted to know how yielding we are to Him-- in season and out of season. He knows our limitations and we could even remember that when we give up, He will still be there.

27 June 2016

Everything good comes from our Father (James 1:17). If anything is good, surely it is from above. But Satan's plan is to kill, to steal, and destroy (John 10:10). If it was something bad, it was the enemy's goal.

God is omnipotent and sovereign, He knows all things that happens. If something bad has been allowed to occur, it was only for Him to know how we respond to it. God won't desire broken relationships, wouldn't want us to be hurt, doesn't want us to get strayed. If any of those bad situation has come our way and we have succumb to the enemy's goal, we lose. If we can still say, our hearts will choose to say, blessed be Your name (Job 1:21) then everything He can work out for good (Romans 8:28).

26 June 2016

If I truly believe He is a God of Justice (He is), a God who is sovereign (He is), our God who knows everything (He is). Then why should I take matters into my own when I can trust He will do what He says, in His ways, His time. 

I live by faith. I am called to pure thoughts. I should pursue holiness for He is Holy. I should look to Him not on my cicumstances. I will have to be steadfast despite what other people says. I need to have that gentle and quite spirit. I ought to ask revelations from Him. I have to remember He is God, He is also my Father. 

20 June 2016

My family knows me, few people I call friends probably knows me same, I know myself, far more than all these, God knows me. He knows my name, the number of hairs I have, He knew me when I was still there in the dark corners of my mother's womb. He knows when I rise and when I sleep. He knows my thoughts, all I feel, just about everything I am. He loves me. There is no comfort greater than knowing this truth.

14 June 2016

In our last week's fellowship, we were asked about the state of our spiritual life. I shared how it went about the past days, months. How I unlearn and relearned many things from our Father through sweet fellowship with the Holy Spirit. 

In one question, what's the hindrance to that state, I thought of fear. That little panic attacks I used to have. 

This week, a friend from a bookstore gave me a book that links to it. 

I am always amazed at how God weaves things. Sometimes I don't understand, but I am not called to, but to trust. He will be the strength of my heart. My portion forever. He is what I believe to be just and righteous. 

“Instead of your shame you will receive a double portion, and instead of disgrace you will rejoice in your inheritance. And so you will inherit a double portion in your land, and everlasting joy will be yours.”

Isaiah 61:7 NIV

13 June 2016

Why we're all in third service.
Why some groups has been dismembered and new groups were formed.
Why after service are fellowships of us.
Why I have friends I can sleepover.
Why I have confirmations.
Why my parents understand me.
Why it has been allowed if not for anything.

I thought it was me, til I had to test and checked on it. He allowed it.

09 June 2016

I am always inspired by other people's faith, their amazing testimonies that I would want to have that kind of audacious devotions. I would sometimes pray their prayers, try out with me how it worked for them. But today I realized and was prompted of my personal devotions and faith to Him. My relationship with Him is uniquely awesome and my personal prayers will always be something between us. It may not be as grand as what others have but sure it is special. I desire to still be a testimony, my faith to be known but more than that, I desire Him and to know Him more. 

Pastor Joey, in his preaching last Sunday, remembered when he was starting would imitate how one pastor prayed, more of less 8 hours and so his teachings and healing ministry was unbelievable. He tried to do how this pastor was doing until he realized he can't but understood his personal relationship with God was more important. So he began to do it how he would. 

God loves us and wants a relationship with us. He is very much willing to teach us what we need to do or pray for. It is His delight to be with us. 

07 June 2016

I passed the 100th day since that day on May 28, 2016, pursuant to God and His word more than ever and best is yet to come. He has been weaving things as I stand in awe of Him. He was my very hope at my lowests, but raising my benchmark state to an equilibrium. I eat His Words everyday so when time of distress comes, I have something to digest. It is my energy. It is in my blood. 

Looking at Jesus how unshakeable He is, He put God the Father first so He stands strong in promises every day. 

Dear Lord,

I desire to be sincere in everything I do for You. You tests hearts, and You sees in secret, nothing is hidden from You. May You find me always in hunger and searching for You and Your glory as You strengthen my heart. 

Amen

Matthew 6:1-16

Psalm 139

06 June 2016

The past days were stressful and I got weary so I am looking forward to a restful week. I thank God for He has given me grace to understand how to manage my stress, sometimes it spills on my face but I know that my insides has been steadfast on His promises. His power is made perfect in my weaknesses. 

I have learned and learning the doing to listen first from Him before I speak. I pray that my heart may yield to Him and my core be rooted on Him. There are storms, rains in my wish-to-be-all-summers life, the bible is very open about the idea that we will go thru trials, but is very reminding us that His grace will always be sufficient, leaving us peace and hope to hold on to during the passing of the challenges. 

I am waiting on God for new work, opportunities to be open, for His leadings not with gritting teeth, but with the glory-strength that He gives. In the waking moments of pains, I always surrender and look to Him. My flesh and my heart may fail, but He is the strength of my heart. 

To love, to not neglect, to remember, to be undefiled, to be contented--for He will never leave me. He is my Helper. //On Hebrews 13:1-6

02 June 2016 Graces

“For the grace of God has appeared that offers salvation to all people. It teaches us to say “No” to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age,”

Titus 2:11-12 NIV

http://bible.com/111/tit.2.11-12.niv

If grace is an ocean, we are all sinking. 

The passage shows another awesome gift of the grace of God. Grace isn't just something we receive once but an ocean we can swim into. 

The law opens our eyes to our sins but the grace of God allows us to be saved. Moreover, it does not only open the door for salvation, but grace is a guide to holiness. The grace of God helps us to say no to worldly passions, leading us to live a self-controlled and godly lives. 

01 June 2016 Dry Bones

Apart from His grace, I am but flesh with nothing good dwells in. Can these bones live? Behold, He will cause breathe to enter in me, and I shall live. 

(Eze 37:1-14)

My dear Creator,

I am but a dry bone, nothing good dwells in me. I thank You putting flesh on me, skin that covers me. Thank You for breathing on me making me live. You who began a good work in me (Phil 1:6) has also given me hope and has placed Your Spirit in me thay I may fully live. You are my Creator, You are my Lord. 

Amen.