When I came here, it wasn't a plan to leave early. I had high hopes. I had wanted this for so long. Coupled with the work abroad plans was involving in the church. I found myself serving in the church in the photo team, honored to be part of a new lifegroup that's starting. It went from group of 7 to 17 regular members. It was thriving for the glory of God. Many were committing their lives to the ministry.
Apart from it I was personally dealing with physical pains, my head and back going worse, my pending offs gone to sick leaves, my anger easily flares up with work stress, I had to deal with anxieties, I was personally challenged by kabayans and other culture. I was doing good at work but the dealing with belittlement gets under my skin without their knowing. The workplace wasn't healthy. I couldn't fake it. I wasn't happy.
It was the grace of God that kept me going. I was clueless, I had doubts, but God is at work. I wasn't fully understanding as my thoughts are very much limited of what I know of Him. I was weaker each day but God is working mightily inside me. I long for fulfillment of my spiritual hunger I couldn't explain. I left other social media, not totally putting it off but disciplined myself into only what I extent I can read as some I get heartaches. I stay here and IG as writing helps me remember many good things. I try to write honest blogs that are not superficial. I had sleepless nights, boring days, happy nights, fellowships and too much me time, and awfully missing activities and people I used to have. In all this I kept my hunger for God. Clinging and yielding to Him. I don't want to miss this opportunity as when something was on my backs, it was only for me to look up.
It was the grace of God that kept me going. I was clueless, I had doubts, but God is at work. I wasn't fully understanding as my thoughts are very much limited of what I know of Him. I was weaker each day but God is working mightily inside me. I long for fulfillment of my spiritual hunger I couldn't explain. I left other social media, not totally putting it off but disciplined myself into only what I extent I can read as some I get heartaches. I stay here and IG as writing helps me remember many good things. I try to write honest blogs that are not superficial. I had sleepless nights, boring days, happy nights, fellowships and too much me time, and awfully missing activities and people I used to have. In all this I kept my hunger for God. Clinging and yielding to Him. I don't want to miss this opportunity as when something was on my backs, it was only for me to look up.
I had my share of gaining new friends and praises, also heartbreaking pains of people getting drifted away from me. There were too much questions, have I really gone astray to be left? What have I done wrong. I had praises I never expected. God has answers I wouldn't ever mind. I try not to retaliate but filling myself with words, verses, readings. I pick up encouragement from random people I talk to. God has His unfathomable ways. It is His business to change people, my business is to trust. I know He is faithful to the promise He has for me as I hold on to His words.
Thessalonians 5 - 23 Now may the God of peace Himself sanctify you completely; and may your whole spirit, soul, and body be preserved blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. 24 He who calls you is faithful, who also will do it.
Thessalonians 5 - 23 Now may the God of peace Himself sanctify you completely; and may your whole spirit, soul, and body be preserved blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. 24 He who calls you is faithful, who also will do it.
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