18 May 2017 Wounds

I was putting bandaid on my wounds when I started remembering and writing. I thank God for all the promises He gave. 

Time heals all wounds, we would hear. So when I had to go through healing, I had to use the time by trying to forget what happened. I take some drinks, I run, I go up the mountains. Anyway, time heals. I just need to get busy.

Soon, I felt I was okay. Ready for the world. I took chances. But the wound that's been healed only through time brings memories. When the memory hits, it brings you back to thoughts. Thoughts render you powerless and weak. It was like building house on sand. The foundation was not so strong. It can still destroy you and your future relationships. The memory persists as long as it reminds you of it. Do you then run away again, walk away again, hurt other people again? 

Healing is a process of surrender. Going to the doctor. To the Great Doctor. Mark 2:17

God heals wounds. He binds it (Psalm 147:3), pressing the wound itself right into its core til you scream and ask Him to stop pressing. But it is how wounds would heal, it must be binded to stop the flow of blood. It cannot be stopped if it won't be binded with pressure. Ironic it may seem but you need not understand what's going on (Proverbs 3:5-6) So you surrender the pain, you let Him bring pressure into it. Because we live believing, not what is seeing (2 Cor 5:7)

Then you rest. Just like how someone who has gone through operation in the hospital gets exhausted, you will fall asleep. Yes, not doing much as oppose to how you were before. Not busy. You put yourself into state of  resting that He will give (Matt 11:28). Getting up will take time. You will get dizzy at first, won't be able to do things as what you can do before. You have to rest. While you are resting, be assured that He is close to you, looking after you (Psalm 34:8). If you shall fail, He will be your strength (Psalm 73:26). 

And yes, you need not run from people, that's fear. For with healing, He shall give us the spirit of power, love, self-control (2 Tim 1:7)

That's where healing begins, as the song goes, when you've come to where you're broken within, the light meets the dark.